i am very happy.  jimmy’s coming home today and should be home in a few short hours. yay!

my garden is growing BEAUTIFULLY! my strawberries are blooming, the tomatoes are coming up, the peppers are growing in their second set of leaves.  i noticed yesterday that one of the pumpkins is coming up its looking like the other ones might be duds though. but the one that is coming up has these gorgeous big leaves.   i have something like 33 lil cucumber plants sprouting up from the ground. my sunflowers are also starting to come in nicely.. this weekend me and jimmaroo are gunna have to go out and look for a place to start a new garden, big garden. i really did plant too many things    my parents keep saying that its going to get too hot this summer for them and that a lot of them will die i hope not.  i’m hoping my peppers will be ok. they like the heat.. and hey, shouldnt sunflowers like the sun?

for some reason, murphy hasnt been eating :(  ive been having to point at his food dish and tell him to “go eat.”  i havent seen him eat voluntarily on his own in at least a week. last night, after some coaxing, murphy ate a whole plate of food like a starving little puppy. jim is wondering if maybe he’s sad because his daddy’s gone. i dont know whats wrong. :(  i’m worried about him.

i watched a show last night on ID (investigative discovery). it was a documentary of countries in south america.  i think they were in like hondorus when i caught it.. a woman translator/guide was showing the host around. they were at a garbage dump and 1,000 families (not people, but whole families)  were living off of the dump. trucks caring 4tons of garbage would arrive every 15-20mins.  a guy would climb into the back, on top of it all, and rake the garbage down to the ground where people and children would dig through it. they even found their food from the dump. the children were looking for cans and toys. one child became very excited when he has eighteen cents worth in cans. there was a woman there with two children. she looked very old and at first i thought she was the children’s grandmother; she was their mother. she walked up to the translator, a young woman in her late 20s to mid 30s, and asked her to take her two daughters.  the mother said she couldn’t support them and wanted them to have better.  i just started crying right along with the translator/guide woman.
i was reading CNN today and stumbled across a news video of a 70yo first-grader.  he was born in the 1930s and promised his mother he would learn to read.  so there he is now, an elderly man, sitting in chairs with 6yos around him and learning to read. the teacher recalled a time when the man  came up to her and asked her if she knew that in grocery stores they had signs above the aisles that say what is in them so you dont have to go up and down them all.   my heart just broke!

i’m so lucky to have been born here. i’m lucky that every night i have a soft bed with a gluttony of pillows and blankets to sleep on, a tubby dog who snuggles me and keeps me warm, clean disease-free food in my own tummy, and no fear of where my next meal will come from. anything i need, anything i want, i get.  today i’m feeling really lucky and really blessed.

i can’t go anywhere today without seeing this story. yahoo, google, cnn, fuck even perez hilton. apparently “a lance corporal stationed at Marine Corps Base Hawaii in Kaneohe” threw a puppy off a cliff, video taped it, and it leaked (?.. he was probably also stupid enough to post it himself) onto youtube. the video has been pulled (thankfully), but news of it is *everywhere*.

i can only hope that somewhere in kaneohe a dexter has found this lance corporal and is giving him his comeupance.

it is instances like this that make people hate the marines. i wonder if these people know that mr and ms average-joe american is honestly afraid of the marine. these people are literally crazy. i swear they recruit out of the psych wards around the country. no, really the problem is the marines handling of new recruits.. “tearing down to rebuild” them into the perfect soldier.. now this could be ok if you need a crazy person to kill a nazi.. but guess what? they’re no longer a problem.. true; we could sic them on a terrorist but who here remembers osama bin laden?.. they’re busy chasing ghosts. our american government created a monster to kill a monster. the problem now is that there are no more monsters for them to kill. now they are focusing their crazy on their innocent public. raping people and torturing and killing puppy dogs.

fuck the marines!